You smile over me.

"In the middle of the storm, You are my peace.
In the middle of the desert, You are my strength.
In the middle of my mess, You wash my feet.
In the middle of it all, You never leave.

In the middle of my brokenness, you are my strength.
In the middle of my nothing, You are everything.
In the middle of my cry, You answer me.

IN THE MIDDLE OF IT ALL, HERE YOU ARE." Jonathan David Helser

In the middle of anything and everything He is there with me. Walking through it ALL, taking on the burdens I can't carry or simply don't want to. No matter what I do, he will never turn his back on me. No matter what frustrations, sin, stress that I deal with (or don't deal with, for that matter) He loves me anyway.

I find myself sitting around way to often wondering how I am going to make something happen the way I want it to or calculating a plan when I realize, I AM WASTING MY TIME. Not to say that He doesn't want me to be seeking his plan for my life but the way I am wired, patience is hard for me. I can rest in it for a few hours maybe a day and then I become restless wanting to know more, finding it hard to be patient. Always desiring that next step...

So at times, when I find it hard to be patient I try to sit and think about the past and how His plan has been fulfilled in my life. Not to say that it has always been easy by any means but His plan has been fulfilled in ways I never even imagined at times and when I look back and reflect and then see where I am now, I find myself consumed by one word: GRATEFUL.

And in these moments I find it easy to be patient for the future and to see the rest of my story written by Him and Him alone. I pray that he continues to break me when I try to plan my life out only so that He can build me back up and that He could be glorified as I continue to lean on Him.

I can wonder all my life why or how God loves me as much as he does. I can sit around and ponder for forever or I can just embrace it.

He has told you, O man, what is good;
         And what does the LORD require of me
         But to do justice, to love kindness,
         And to walk humbly with my God? Micah 6:8

So, here's to walking humbly, being patient, embracing His plan and to telling my story.