sometimes life is nothing like i expect it to be. i find myself wanting something more than what i currently have and exhausting every venue to get there. trying to make life "perfect" is tiring for a reason...and i think.by think i mean know. the reason is because i'm going about it all wrong.

i love when God takes you out of a situation and allows you to almost see it from an outsider point of view. the past few days strangers have blessed my life and put smiles on my face when i really needed it. the lady at einstein bagels who noticed my a&m shirt and proceeded to ask me all about my life, job, and told me that "you will without a doubt be successful at everything you do." or the guy at church who saw me get teary eyed and proceeded to ask me my name, if i was ok, then give me a little squeeze side hug (not as awk as it sounds). it's kinda sad that initially these moments kinda shock me. a stranger is extending kind words to ME?? but if i really start to thinkin about it, It's moments like these that i live for and that i see Christ in. when i have a hard week filled with suffering, life lessons, tears - he uses the smallest instances to show His love to me. to show that everything really will be ok. to show that no matter what the circumstances, He calls me to press on. to get back up out of the trenches, dust myself off, clean myself up, calm my tears. whatever it may be. and put one step in front of the other towards finding his purpose in my life.

this is not always easy but i feel like this verse gives me the encouragment i need to try to make every day a constant step in the right direction...His direction. "Look to the Lord and His strength; seek His face always." 1 Chronicles 16:11.

so much more to say but i have no clue how to even put it into words, processing my life right now is SO overwhelming so i'm taking it one day at a time...maybe next time??