just one of those days.

Do you ever feel like you just have days where you wish you could crawl under a rock and just get it over with already?? Yeah me neither. HA. Actually today is one of those in way too many ways. And last night when I was sick and couldn't sleep, this song was just ringing in my head. For so many reasons...

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away."


I'm so grateful for His love and for all the people in my life that love me so much and never ever hesitate to show it. Each of you know who you are : ) and you bless me beyond belief.

A few confessions.

I would like to be able to do my hair like this, maybe for brunch on a random Sunday at Nick & Sam's or for my wedding day. Either would do.

TRUTH: "Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy." - Cynthia Nelms

 

 

I think this may be what Heaven could look like. for me at least. "Light shines on the righteous and joy on the upright in heart." Psalm 97:11

 

 

I may or may not have eaten these at the airport on Friday. (YUMMMM) Also, during my 3 hour delay. A 60 year old man headed to a jewelry show bought me a boot shine (after my numerous attempts at politely saying "no") but might I say I never knew my dingy Steve Madden boots could like so shiny!

 

 

I would like to sleep/live/stay here. In the middle of NOWHERE. without a care in the world. yeahhhh i would take this in. a heartbeat. do you think they have wifi??

 

I believe that wishes really do come true. but actually that they are really just God's blessings or His way of telling us yes or no. either way, i love the moments when you realize something you wished is actually now a reality. normally a small, quiet thank you follows : )

 

I know I say this ALOT, but i'm just ready for summer to be here already and i would love to make a drink like this. Maybe Margarita style with a little bit of tequila? mmmhmmm good.

 

I need to remind myself of this much, much more. I love Dallas and everything that is here and I know the Lord has me here for so many reasons but there is always that nagging feeling/desire to go/see/do/be somewhere else. That feeling of having that fear of missing out, but then I need to remember to sit back and relax. I am 23, and have my ENTIRE life ahead of me for God to use and that makes me EXCITED.

 

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And I know this verse has been floating around my blog ALOT but it just keeps popping up in the most random places...

 

"He has told you, O man, what is good; And what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?" Micah 6:8

 

...so for today, I am still continuing/struggling/being challenged to figure out what these things look like in every day life. Doing justice. Loving kindness. and most important walking HUMBLY with my God. DAILY.

 

 

Unbelievable.

"This is the world [God] has made. This is the world that is still going on. And he doesn't walk away from the mess we've made of it. Now he lives, almost cheerfully, certainly heroically, in a dynamic relationship with us and with our world. "Then the Lord intervened" is perhaps the single most common phrase about him in Scripture, in one form or another. Look at the stories he writes. There's the one where the children of Israel are pinned against the Red Sea, no way out, with Pharaoh and his army barreling down on them in murderous fury. Then God shows up. There's Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, who get rescued only after they're thrown into the fiery furnace. Then God shows up. He lets the mob kill Jesus, bury him . . . then he shows up. Do you know why God loves writing such incredible stories? Because he loves to come through. He loves to show us that he has what it takes. It's not the nature of God to limit his risks and cover his bases. Far from it. Most of the time, he actually lets the odds stack up against him. Against Goliath, a seasoned soldier and a trained killer, he sends a freckle-faced little shepherd kid with a slingshot. Most commanders going into battle want as many infantry as they can get. God cuts Gideon's army from thirty-two thousand to three hundred. Then he equips the ragtag little band that's left with torches and watering pots. It's not just a battle or two that God takes his chances with, either. Have you thought about his handling of the gospel? God needs to get a message out to the human race, without which they will perish . . . forever. What's the plan? First, he starts with the most unlikely group ever: a couple of prostitutes, a few fishermen with no better than a second-grade education, a tax collector. Then, he passes the ball to us. Unbelievable."

You smile over me.

"In the middle of the storm, You are my peace.
In the middle of the desert, You are my strength.
In the middle of my mess, You wash my feet.
In the middle of it all, You never leave.

In the middle of my brokenness, you are my strength.
In the middle of my nothing, You are everything.
In the middle of my cry, You answer me.

IN THE MIDDLE OF IT ALL, HERE YOU ARE." Jonathan David Helser

In the middle of anything and everything He is there with me. Walking through it ALL, taking on the burdens I can't carry or simply don't want to. No matter what I do, he will never turn his back on me. No matter what frustrations, sin, stress that I deal with (or don't deal with, for that matter) He loves me anyway.

I find myself sitting around way to often wondering how I am going to make something happen the way I want it to or calculating a plan when I realize, I AM WASTING MY TIME. Not to say that He doesn't want me to be seeking his plan for my life but the way I am wired, patience is hard for me. I can rest in it for a few hours maybe a day and then I become restless wanting to know more, finding it hard to be patient. Always desiring that next step...

So at times, when I find it hard to be patient I try to sit and think about the past and how His plan has been fulfilled in my life. Not to say that it has always been easy by any means but His plan has been fulfilled in ways I never even imagined at times and when I look back and reflect and then see where I am now, I find myself consumed by one word: GRATEFUL.

And in these moments I find it easy to be patient for the future and to see the rest of my story written by Him and Him alone. I pray that he continues to break me when I try to plan my life out only so that He can build me back up and that He could be glorified as I continue to lean on Him.

I can wonder all my life why or how God loves me as much as he does. I can sit around and ponder for forever or I can just embrace it.

He has told you, O man, what is good;
         And what does the LORD require of me
         But to do justice, to love kindness,
         And to walk humbly with my God? Micah 6:8

So, here's to walking humbly, being patient, embracing His plan and to telling my story.

truth.

...everything will be justttttt fine.
...the world will keep spinning.
...God's plan will ALWAYS trump mine.
...I will choose to be content in the places He has me.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You preserve my life; You stretch out your hand against the anger of my enemies, with Your right hand You save me. The Lord WILL fulfill his purpose for me; Your love, O LORD, endures forever -- do not abandon the works of Your hands. Psalms 138: 7-8

love.

5 things I LOVE this Valentines Day!

1.     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAUMU3QQE6w

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3. 1 John 4:16-19 "And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us."



4. my bff's
  


5. and these "words of wisdom" ha ;)



And one more...Reese's hearts or any holiday Reese's really. Somehow they are just so much better than the regular ones.



XOXO loves.

and one other thing.

This quote just pretty much yelled at me. It's just so true.